I think I’m allergic to the air
Like I’m itchy all the time no matter where I am, what I’m doing or how long I shower for
Then my nose is always runny, eyes always watery and my face is just fucking itchy and I sneeze all the time
Help make it stop cause seriously it’s ALL DAY LONG
i like how all i do on tumblr is post the most irrelevant text posts ever. like when was the last time i reblogged a pretty picture or some shit? no one reads or wants to read this shit.
lol i used to only do that and my blog was pretty
now it looks like shit and i’m sure if i ever clicked on it to read it i’d scream and delete them all faster than you think
this is why i have 10 followers lolololololol hehehehe
i got a jooob, i got a jooobb.
today was really good actually.. i put the cd with foster the people on it in today and was like shiiiiiiiiitttt. and just started jamming. i don’t know what it is but seriously like when i listen to them i’m always happy like la la la la. and thennnn lowes called me right as my mom got home and she was like “wooo! now you can move back! ~~~so proud of you” and i’m like yay i didn’t do much but me too.
and then we were talking and i don’t know i didn’t get sad, or sit there thinking ‘you’re annoying shut yo mouth plzzzzz’ and that was relieving.
and i missed his phone call earlier and i was like damn but ain’t nothing gone make me sad or ruin my day today, get it got it good nigggggggggggggggggggggggggggaaaaaaaaaa
now were having corn on the cob and hamburgers for dinner.
and then i’m gonna put pictures up on my wall, or atleast get them ready to cause my mom was like ‘that looks weird, put them over there’ lol
and draw in my room. because i’m in the mood to draw. and listen to foster the people til my ears bleed and i’m screaming shut up mark foster you blow huge dick. then i’d probably turn on like 5 songs i know from escape the fate because Evan put them on a cd for me way back when we first started dating and I liked that cd a loott but we left it at the shed one time and idk I have just been jammin to them lately too.
then i’ll probably do it all again next week.
Can I get a job and move back into my mom’s already?
Because then life will be like last summer and that is perfect and all I want.
Like I wake up at my dads and I’m like …wtf am I supposed to do all day.
I wake up at my mom’s and it just comes natural
1. When was the last time you swam in a pool?
uhhh like last year
2. Do you like to party?
3. If your ex suddenly kissed you right now, what would you do?
i don’t have an ex
4. Are you a virgin?
5. What are your parents views on sex?
? i’m gonna be 20 years old, they don’t care. they just don’t want me pregnant
6. If you ran into your current boyfriend/crush in 10 years would you marry them?
uh. usually the guy proposes and i don’t fucking know
7. Is your best friend dating anyone?
8. Describe the shirt you’re wearing.
its gray, its a tshirt, and there is nothing on it
9. Do people who wear Hollister and Abercrombie every day bother you?
i don’t take notes on what people wear everyday so
10. Could you go out in public without wearing make-up?
if you say no to this, get over yourself
11. What is one feature that you don’t like?
12. Would people describe you as happy?
probably not, i always look angry lol
13. Are you single?
14. Does it bother you that pretty much every survey you take asks if you’re single?
15. Do you have Tumblr?
16. What about Xanga?
i did in fifth or sixth grade
made like 3 posts lol
17. Have you ever babysat before?
18. Is there a teacher who you absolutely hate?
i don’t hate anyone
19. Ever shopped at Sephora?
20. If your current boyfriend/crush suddenly moved away what would you do?
he is, i mean its not sudden, but he suddenly left like two weeks ago so
but to answer your question uhm nothing out of the ordinary
21. Do you have any university plans?
22. If your best friend revealed she was a homosexual, what would you do?
be like oh thats awesome and go on with life
thats not something that requires a specific reaction
23. What are your views on sex?
i enjoy it
24. Do sexual questions bother you?
25. Would you rather have sex with your boyfriend or break up?
what the hell kind of question is this
26. Have you ever dreamed about your wedding?
27. Does it bother you when people TYpe 1yk dis’? Nd stuff?
28. Do you delete pictures of you and your exes off of Facebook?
i don’t have an ex
29. Would you ever date a friends ex?
30. What’s the last book you read?
Have a Little Faith
31. Ready for 10 simple questions?
32. What is your last name?
33. What grade are you in?
uh junior year of college
34. What school do you go to?
35. Summer, Fall, Winter or Spring?
36. Favourite Colour?
37. Are your parents together?
38. Any siblings?
39. Favourite subject?
40. Least favourite subject?
english go fuck yourself bye
41. Favourite song?
changes all the time
42. Okay. Simple questions are over. Happy?
43. How many friends do you have on Facebook?
44. Ever been requested by some old guy from another country?
45. Have you ever googled yourself?
46. Have a Formspring?
i did way back in the day idk
47. You’re offered free tickets to a Justin Bieber concert. What do you do?
48. Would you rather spend the day at an amusement park or a water park?
depends on the weather
49. Been to Disney world?
50. If someone posts their status “9 Inches :(” do you know what they mean?
51. Ever had a boyfriend?
52. Ever had a huge crush on someone who still doesn’t know?
53. Have you done something in the last week that you regret?
54. Ever drank alcohol?
55. Know anyone who’s currently doing drugs?
i could name a shit load of people and more than likely someone is
56. Ever watched The Hills?
a few times
57. What about Jersey Shore?
58. Ever called someone a slut?
not to their face
well when i say it to your face i’m joking, when i say it to someone else you really a hoe
59. What do you think of short shorts?
60. Does it bother you if people swear around you?
61. Have you ever gotten an A in a subject?
62. What about a B?
63. And a C?
64. How about a D?
65. Ever plagiarised?
66. Would you consider yourself popular and outcast or somewhere in the middle?
67. Are most of your friends older or younger than you?
68. Ever been stabbed In the back by a close friend?
69. Do you think it’s immature when people laugh at the number 69?
70. Ever watched Porn?
71. How many laws do you think you’ve broken in the past month?
a lot? idk
72. Do you wake up with an alarm clock?
not recently, but usually yes
73. Do you prefer Wednesdays or Thursdays?
i don’t have a preference
74. If your school had a Glee Club would you join?
75. Ever performed in a talent show?
76. Have you ever cried in public?
77. Do you have a favourite between your Mum and your Dad?
78. Would you audition for a reality talent competition?
79. How many celebrity crushes have you had?
80. How many non-celebrity crushes have you had?
81. Name 5 male celebrities who you think are attractive.
james franco, joseph-gordon levitt, ryan gosling, ryan reynolds, uhhh idk
82. Name 5 female celebrities who you think are attractive.
there are a lot, idk
83. Ever been compared to a celebrity?
84. Have any embarrassing pictures on Facebook?
85. Do you think spending 20$ on Lip Gloss is a waste of money?
86. Ever used Opinionated?
87. Do you have a favourite store?
88. Would you ever wear Flare Jeans?
i rarely do
89. Do you own jeans that aren’t skinny?
i don’t wear them but yeah
90. Have you ever worn the same outfit twice in one week?
91. What’s the longest period of time you’ve been away from school?
92. Do you google abbreviations you don’t understand?
unless i see it like multiple times and i’m like wtf
93. Does it bother you when people have cats as their profile picture?
i like cats
94. Own a pair of converse?
95. Is there a teacher at your school who has obvious favourites?
96. If yes, are you one of them?
98. What brand of jeans do you wear the most?
american eagle idk
99. At what point do you think sizes are “Plus Sized?” Most magazines say 10. Do you agree?
100. Do you want to lose weight?
101. Ever seen a therapist?
102. Ever watched porn?
you already asked this and i said yes so why you askin again nigga
103. Ever purposely ignored a text?
a lot lol
104. A facebook message?
105. A poke?
106. A friend request?
107. Would you say you read into things too much?
108. Is your best friend more likely to be the one suggesting something stupid or refusing to do something stupid?
109. Do you have a “fun friend?” (A friend who you have tons of fun with but you never really have deep conversations?)
but we talk too sooo
110. Ever been called a bully?
112. Ever gone to church?
113. Would you call either of your parents screw ups?
114. If you turned out exactly like your Dad would you be pleased?
115. What about your Mom?
116. Let me guess… You have brown hair?
117. Already know what you’re being for Halloween?
118. Do you still go Trick or Treating?
119. Ever liked someone WAY older than you?
120. Does it bother you when people have really loud conversations on the bus?
121. When you have sunglasses on, do you stare at people?
122. Ever had a credit card denied?
123. What’s the last movie you watched?
124. Last TV Show?
125. You see your ex making out with one of your friends. What do you do?
i don’t have an ex
126. Ever been called a whore?
i don’t know
127. Ever sang the national anthem?
128. Ever made yourself throw up?
129. Have you ever kissed someone who wasn’t your boyfriend.
130. Are you Cute or Gross?
thats an opinion so
131. Does it bother you when people say “LOOK HOW MUCH YOU’VE GROWN!”
132. Can you say intelligent things around the guy you like?
no i only speak in broken english
133. Ever had the lead in a play?
pippa mouse, 3rd grade bitch
only play i was ever in, praise jesus
134. What about a solo in a concert?
135. What kind of a student are you?
a good one when i care enough to try
136. Worst grade you’ve ever gotten with a Letter?
137. Worst grade you’ve ever gotten with a number?
138. Ever had a crush on a teacher?
139. Would it bother you if you found out that your mother was pregnant?
140. How late do you sleep in?
141. Do you edit your profile pictures before posting them?
142. Be 100% honest. Do you have any friends who are uglier than you?
in my opinion, yes
143. Do you believe in all that inner beauty crap?
but that doesn’t mean everyone is beautiful on the inside, some people are evil
144. Would you consider yourself a good student?
145. Does it bother you when Surveys ask “Did you like this survey?”
146. Salty, Sweet, Sour or Spicy?
i read this question and immediately was like sour patch watermelons so like sweet and sour
147. Are you going into High School this year?
148. What about Junior High?
149. What is one thing someone could say to you right now that would make you cry?
i have no idea
150. Where did you find this note?
151. Last question. How many unread messages are in your phone?
Cools not the proper word but whatevs
So I’ve been bummed out all day because last night I hung out with Jenni and she was constantly texting and calling Bud and I was like …oh let me see how Ev-wait. I fucking can’t. And then his friend answered the fb message I relayed for him and said in part of it that things have been different since he started using. And THEN he called me and was like real quick! I only have two quarters so we talked like super quick and he was telling me about his day and was like I wanted to get high and then before I could even be like woah bro it was time to be like I love you, bye.
So as I’m fucking writing a letter to him about how this bothered me (cause I’ve been supposed to mail him shit and was like meh why not include this since its probably gonna be super long) he called back and was like I found a phone card. And then he asked me what the matter was which was weird cause I thought I was hiding the fact that it bothered me pretty well. Then I started crying and was like that bothered me! And he was laughed and was like yeah well I did. I’m going to. It’s something I have to work on. And then he was like I’m moving and I was like yeah that’s good but it’s so far away and he was like yeah but I have so much work to do.. He was like I’ll probably see you once a week (idk where he came up with that number cause this bitch cannot afford to drive an hour to an hour and a half once a week and back), which is good, I’m not even supposed to date someone for a year and me being an asshole I’m like why he’s like cause they say you need to fix yourself first and I’m like I don’t need fixed still bein a dickhead like hehehe but really still being serious because that’s odd in my opinion but obviously the reasoning makes sense and he was like I know you don’t, I do. I have to go to NA meetings everyday, go to work, I have years of my life I need to change. Then he was like we watched a video about dying and I had to write down 3 people that I knew and it was a sobering reminder. Then he said he was gonna delete his contacts and change his number. Then he said something like last summer was good but it was abstinence it wasn’t recovery, he needs to keep doing things to get better, not simply not doing it and that he’s gonna be 23 and I’m just sitting on the other line like uh huh, yep, good!, agreeing and encouraging him and at the same time wondering how the HELL he just literally addressed all of my worries when all I said was “it bothered me when you said you wanted to get high”
Literally I’m writing this letter over here like I doubt your want to get clean. Doesn’t it scare you? You have to move/change who you associate with and he calls me mid sentence, and just makes it better.
Now I can go to bed not sad over here like BUT HE WAS MAKING PROGRESS AND NOW WAHHHHH now it’s like he’s making progress and there’s gonna be times when he wants to do something, but he is well aware he can’t submit to it and he knows what he has to do to prevent it. Woo keep workin kid, I know you got this
Can I just get hired somewhere so I can move back to my mom’s already?
And I don’t wanna sound rude even though it is, but I can’t help it.. But literally everyone I talk to besides my sister and Jenni annoys me lately. It gets a little frustrating when as soon as I see/start talking to you I hear “how are you? have you talked to Evan? do you have a job?” Then there’s my mom and somebody else who are like “you haven’t done drugs, have you? you aren’t craving anything, are you?”
Like I understand your concern but its pushing me away. When I get out of the house I want to have fun and do something entertaining not fucking sit there and talk about serious shit and things that upset me. I just wanna scream IM FUCKING FINE, YEAH I TALKED TO EVAN AND IM STILL WITH HIM CAUSE I LOVE HIM. NO I DON’T HAVE A FUCKING JOB YET I WOULD’VE FUCKING TOLD YOU IF I GOT A JOB.
No I haven’t done drugs. No I don’t crave it. Not everyone is the same. Not everyone gets addicted. You wouldn’t understand that because you listen to everything people tell you regardless if it is not completely true or true in all circumstances.
And I’m sick and tired of the fact I can’t talk to anyone about Evan because everyone hates him. And they use this as an excuse, meanwhile half of you hated him before for dumb ass reasons. “I just think he’s immature” Well I think you’re boring, close-minded, and need to experience life a little before it passes you by.✌
Nobody not once was like “you know, he makes her really happy” or “he really loves her and makes her feel good about herself in a way no one else has, which would be hard to do considering I’ve struggled with confidence my entire life and have never felt good enough” but no. They don’t say these things because they don’t notice these things because they are too damn busy judging him for a problem that he struggles with and only looking at that.
Which is a shame because if someone made my friends, or family half as happy as he makes me and they had an issue, I would still support their relationship.
How come I randomly see one of your friends every fricken day but I can’t see youuuu 😔😢
OH WHAT THE FUCK
Why do I have short term memory loss that would be awesome if I didn’t forgetttttt
Maybe cause I get too excited :p
Like a child on Christmas mornin’